How can I sleep well without thinking about my crush?

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Omar

For three years I had a classmate I knew, she is currently 16 but when I met her she was like 9 or 10. Anyway we went to the same elementary school together for one whole year and then I never saw her again... or so I thought, when I went to this new school three yeas ago I met up with her again, I was 11 and she was 14, strangely enough I kinda thought she was cute, for some reason I actually thought she was cute, but that kinda makes sense 'cause I'm growing up, so, as time progressed I saw her more differently every day until the year was over. The next year I wound up riding with her and her family everyday to school and back. my parents don't have time to take me to school everyday so I ride with her, and every day I started talking and getting to know her and I thought she was cool and then I soon realized I had a crush on her! I was shocked to realize this, what's worse, that same year there was this other guy who flew all the way from the Philippines showed up and me and my class thought he was cool but then later on he told me in front of my face he liked her too. I was shocked and devastated, so, I played it cool and told him okay, he didn't find out that I liked her too so I was happy about that. I kept this a secret to myself for a whole year, and then he got to talk to her and got to know her and I guess you could say I was a little jealous... a little... so eventually another year has passed and I became a freshman and she became a sophomore, the whole year I became a jerk, a weirdo, and a creep to everyone I knew at school, they knew me as a young, short, immature, annoying, little kid, and as soon as I tried to change my image from immature to tough, mean, and aloof, I immediately became a jerk to everyone, they all were used to me being an annoying, little goofball, who'd knew? So anyway during the middle of the year I was so tired of keeping my secret a secret because my friends were so nosy I had to let it out; man, what a bummer! turns out they already knew the whole time... they claimed I may have let out some clues and I guess it was pretty obvious, so yeah, it was a bummer...later on the year like at the last three or four weeks before graduation she invited me to her church, that's right, we're christian, so I went to her church, and I met some familiar faces, anyway after that day, I don't know what happened but for some reason she wouldn't talk to me, when I would talk to her she would talk back but in a "I don't want to talk to you right now" kind of way, I didn't do anything wrong either! What in the world? So this happened for two weeks, maybe three, and every night thes past two to three years, I couldn't sleep, now it's the last two, three days of school, This Is Where The Crazy Thing Happens! three days of school left and the day just ended, we are waiting for our ride, who comes and picks us up? Her jerk of a brother! I have had a grudge against her older brother for a while now, the whole ride I was angry for no apparent reason, and I think I may have been a little too hard but I was angry. As soon as we reached my house he said bye but she didn't. I got out the car, got my bags from the trunk, and I have no Idea how this happened but apparently I have become strong, so strong I don't know my own strength, and everyone has noticed it, I slam the trunk by accident, and she is like "Don't slam the trunk next time",and because she hadn't talked to me I thought it's payback time, so instead of saying okay, I gave her a thumbs up...bad idea, she must have thought I was giving her the finger, when she saw my thumbs up she yelled out "I'm calling your parents to tell them we're not picking you up anymore...that broke me... she never was so angry like that before, not to me at least, I was crushed, and I realized what I had to do, so I went all the way to her house just to apologize, that didn't work, as a matter of fact, she found me even more creepy than I already seemed. As soon as I was done, I left her house and I soon found myself at my old school where I first met her, and I cried, and I went back home. It's been five weeks since then and yesterday I went online to google images cause I was bored and I typed my crush's name and there she was with the guy who had a crush on her too, and I flipped. So here I am at 12:30 a.m. typing the details of my question to figure out how to forget her and the images of her in my head, because I can't sleep please help me, I am exhausted, depressed, and in love... please help me, and thank you for your cooperation.

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I think you should try your best to move on.
Yeah it's hard :/
Maybe change into a nice guy and see where that gets you :)
I hate that you cried over her and I don't get why she did that after inviting you to her church. But, I wish you the best I really do.

Are my parents being selfish and greedy or am I just overthinking it?

christinej

So my dad is now married to this girl who is half his age. He's in his 50s and she's in her 20s, could pass as my sister. I'm almost positive she only married him so she can come to America since they met in the Philippines. But anyways, when my dad was a single parent, he was able to afford everything. 3 kids on his own, a house, car, three braces payment, cell phone bills, etc. Then all of the sudden she comes in our lives and now they are supposedly broke. My dad is done paying the car and our braces, and TWO people work now. They even work sometimes taking care of old people and they are paid under the table, so I know they have money.

They even think I'm stupid enough to believe them that they are broke.. When my dad was single he could afford everything, then she comes in and now he can't? Two paychecks. The disgusting part is whenever they said they were broke, they would spend every weekend at the mall and when they come home, they try to come in quietly and run to their room with their hands full of shopping bags. They buy expensive clothes like abercrombie, lacoste, American eagle, etc. I'm thinking, if you're broke why the hell do you go shopping every weekend. She even managed to get my dad to cancel my cellphone so they don't pay anything for me anymore.

Also he claims they are broke but they are able to go to the Philippines for vacation.. When in the ten years we been here, he never wanted to pay for us to go back home. But because his new wife wants to, she gets it. She also said she's broke, but before my graduation she bought a $1000 camera for herself. They didn't help me pay for anything with school, last year I was able to compete internationally for a business competition and my dad didn't care to help pay for it. Even for prom, graduation pictures, gowns, etc.. Nothing. Whenever I ask for money I get a huge lecture so I stopped asking them.
Even taking me to my doctors and dentists appointments were out of the question because he would always get mad at me. I pretty much had to do a lot of things on my own. 

I'm joining the Navy to get away from them, and it's messed up how they are planning a trip around September which is around the time I'll graduate bootcamp. Europe, philippines, canada trip all sound like somethig broke people can afford?? I don't even want to call him when I get to basic, don't want to write to them and I definitely dont want him at my graduation. When my recruiter was here a week ago or so, I heard my dad cried and I thought it was about me leaving but turns out he was crying because he was spending too much money on me?!? Are you serious?!?! He said that because my recruiter asked him to pay to renew my passport. I barely ask them for anything and it's nasty to cry over that. Seriously? You're a grown man crying over some money?!? Which you have ALOT of ?!? Gosh, I hate them especially that girl
A good childhood? He wasn't even there for my childhood! My aunt took care of us up until I was 8 years old. My mom messed up our family, but she tries to give everything she can, she gives love and affection like what a parent does. My dad doesn't even do that! He hardly talks to me. And to tell you the truth, I could care less about the money! I always told them I'd rather feel loved than be showered with material things, but he lacks to give both so don't tell me I'm jealous or greedy. I'm definitely not jealous, as a teen I save my own money and is getting by, whenever I have money I buy my little cousins presents all the time and my boyfriend also. My dad does not know how to be a father emotionally, physically and mentally , only financially!! I don't care about the $$. He could be verbally abusive at times and I could care less about his and his wife's ass.

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You sound jealous and greedy. Your dad only owes you the right to a good childhood and bringing you up right. It sounds like he did a good job with you. That is all anyone can hope for. You have NO IDEA what their finances are like and it's really none of your business. You have no idea what either of them gets paid and no knowledge of the debts they have.
Consider this a lesson. After giving you a great childhood with everything you wanted you are now going to have to go out into the world and make it on your own. Try getting a job today and you will understand how hard life has become.Perhaps you don't read the news online or watch it on TV but this country is in a great depression with millions of people out of work and no money coming in. This is today's reality.

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